Andrea, Mason and I have just returned from the beach and Mountain are near Tauranga called 'Mount Maunganui'.
This place is just as beautiful as I remember it to be 2 years ago when I was last here.
The surf was weak (even for me, the beginner). So we went for a walk together around the mountain by the sea. I'm so keen to go running again, but my body needs to recover. Its nice to have a break and slow down a bit too.
A lot of the morning, I was spending feeling reflective. I had terrible dreams last night. I think seeing Andrea with Mason has made me wonder when I will feel maternal and when or if I will have eternal love with another.
When I was younger I was so sure by this age that I would want kids! A part of can see that all those things will be wonderful. But another part of me is too scared about such a commitment and scared about it not working out.
The Mauri woman who spoke to us at the spiritual workshop said that each of us have different ways that we need to fulfill our spirituality. She used examples like being on the beach and feeling the sand in between the toes. She also talked about how she felt she needed to leave Auckland where she lived her whole life in order to explore her spirituality.
She said that that making this move was both hard and incredible (in equal doses) as all of her loved ones still live in Auckland. I guess this is a lot of how I feel. I do feel like a part of me belongs at the beach. And I would love to get a one way ticket travelling, working however I can and learning languages and culture wherever I can. I'm also aware of how important my family and friends in my life are, and how hard it would be to be away from them, especially my grand dad. Most places that I travel to, I could see myself living there. And I can again see this with Tauranga, I felt that when I was last year.
I love the culture of New Zealand, the landscape and the people in it. Perhaps I could create 7 of me to live in many different places? One of me could go and party while the other would stay in Canberra and get settled?
Maybe Ill end up being a foster Mother if I don't end up feeling maternal? I quite like that idea actually. Before all that, a pet seems more appealing anyway. :p
I'm gonna miss Andrea so much when I leave.
Little ones help to bring you back to the present moment. Mason was having the greatest time, watching the crabs in the water, the sheep, lambs and bunnies by the mountain and the seals.
We found a dead star fish that we took home with us. We ate the NZ Copenhagen ice creams at the end. It was brilliant.
Andrea seems to have recovered from her epic hangover which is good news too. :p
Its nice not having a schedule when you are away, having naps in the afternoon and reading a lot more. Going for walks by the nearby historical village is lovely too. Oh and the sun, I was meant to be born in a sunny place!
Kia Ora.
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